Once, I told an acquaintance I loved thrillers. His response?“I don’t understand how anyone can enjoy fear.” And I was like, “Uh… who’s scared here? Me? No, no, the characters are scared. I’m just comfortably watching them suffer.” And The Wolf and the Watchman is the perfect historical thriller for voyeurs and sadists like me….
What makes me feel truly loved
When I was a teenager, I thought it was simple: if a boy was in love with me, I just had to insult him as harshly as possible. If he walked away, he never really loved me. But if he stayed and endured it, then his love was real—stronger than pain, stronger than humiliation. How…
Cafe Date with a Sub: An Interrogation or a Conversation?
Meeting submissive men from the internet in a café can sometimes be downright hilarious. We chat online, find common ground, decide to meet in person, and then… Bam! What was supposed to be a casual date turns into a full-blown interrogation. I’m all for discussing limits, desires, and fantasies, but instead, I get bombarded with…
“Torture me non-stop!”
“I want you to torture me constantly, every single day!”— says a man, certain his words are dripping with seduction. Yet all they earn is nothing more than a weary smirk. Let me give you an example to make my point clearer. A young, stunning woman—completely naked—approaches a man and says,“I want you to fuck…
No One-Size-Fits-All Schedule for My Sub
After my last writing, I started receiving emails asking, “What does a typical day in your sub’s life look like?” Well then, here it is: 7:00 AM – Wake up.7:30–10:00 AM – Accomplish a feat in honor of your Mistress.10:30 AM – Breakfast.11:00 AM–2:00 PM – Battle the Martians.2:30 PM – Lunch.3:00–8:00 PM – Carry…
A Simple Evening from My Past
While chatting here, I’ve noticed that many submissive men crave a 24/7 dynamic, yet they often regard it as overly pornographic. But real life isn’t like a porn film—it has its moods, its fatigue (especially when both partners work), and so much more. I felt compelled to recount one of my genuine evenings from a…
How Not to Take Care of a Woman
I’ve already mentioned that I’ve caught a nasty virus and can’t seem to shake it off. Recently, an acquaintance of mine—who had previously made some rather clumsy attempts to court me—turned my situation into a full-blown drama. Every half an hour, he messages me, insisting that he’ll take me to the doctor, buy me medicine,…
Rereading the Marquis de Sade
I’ve taken to rereading the Marquis de Sade. I first studied his works in university philosophy classes, and at the time, it was pure shock content for me. Initially, I’ll admit, it was hard to read: I care deeply about women and don’t enjoy seeing them suffer. Men, on the other hand, should be the…
Dear Boys, Don’t Expect Kindness from Me
They say that young “vanilla” guys might pursue relationships with women much older than themselves because they believe these women are kinder and more nurturing than young girls their age. But I wonder—what exactly do young men expect when they write to a sadistic woman? Are they hoping for kindness too? Of course, I do…
I Want to Be Seen Through Eyes Like These
Lying in bed, I was scrolling through Instagram before going to sleep. I follow many interesting people, including a translator of ancient languages, particularly Sanskrit. He’s published several books translating ancient Indian texts, and he often shares excerpts from them on his blog. And then, I stumbled upon one of his posts—not a translation of…